Everything has changed these past few days. It is moving so fast into the abyss. I held her last night as she cried and screamed. She begged me to help her. Begged me. I felt powerless. I felt hopeless in those moments. We all did. Gathered around her bed the sadness was palpable. As she recovered she was apologizing, comforting, wiping Samee's tears and patting my back. There is nothing so difficult as being helpless to someone who is so sweet and kind.
I slept fitfully, straining to hear her wimper or move. When I woke up, now hours ago, I lay awake thinking about her...thinking about the effects this is having on Samee...this is hard. This is really hard.