I could not feel more grateful to have so much information available to me 24 hours a day. This morning I found an article from a Neurologist that had gone through a similar ordeal to Mik. Being on the other end of the stethoscope was insightful for him, and for me to hear how hard it was for his family to leave him alone - even after being seizure free for years, helped me to realize I am not paranoid or fearful, just normal.
Dr. Kappa's epiphany was that normal life had ended the first time he had a seizure. Nothing dramatic.... except the loss of freedom and the invasion of grief. Your journey becomes different...not hopeless....not unhappy....just profoundly different.